As I have stepped through the Reiki levels I have felt the power of Reiki strengthen and refine. And yet even after reaching master teacher level in both Usui and Karuna Reiki I was still having trouble getting to grips with the inward journey on which I had embarked. For me consensus unreality was hard, really hard, and though Reiki makes the subject of metaphysics approachable, it required me to look beyond the rational and re-explore everything I had once held as certain with a more open mind. Fortunately each time I began to lose confidence, something would happen that was sufficiently inexplicable, and good, that I was compelled to go on and not back. Still, there was something very comfortable about consensus reality. I missed it. You knew where you were: the impossible was just that, impossible! Now even that wasn't true there really wasn't anywhere to hide. The journey seemed safe but it wasn't always necessarily comfortable. There were so many questions spinning in my head. Was I showing sufficient respect? What happened if I overstep the line? Was it really possible to project energy through time and space? Where did my imagination end and Reiki unreality start? Was Reiki concerned that I was always testing to see if what just happened was repeatable? The questions were endless and yet the discoveries were fascinating and worth all the confusion.
After many years of testing Reiki, experimenting with it and doubting it, I did at least arrive at one answer. Maybe Reiki takes a dim view of all my skepticism and desire for proof but it is clearly willing to put up with it. I am absolutely certain of this: otherwise it would have given me up as a bad job long ago!
by Michael Emanuel at 12:15 AM